Whew!Finally!i am here writing this,this is going to take lots and lots of courage.
Dear husband,
First and foremost i want you to know that i have received you,the gift that is you.You are a beautiful gift from our father and i thank Him for that.It warms my heart to know that you are here and that you are the one God chose for me.
Secondly,i am sorry i have not been consistent in my quiet time with our sweet Jesus,i have not been sitting at His feet of late,i have been very ungrateful for my life and my portion.i am sorry i have not kept the covenant we made with our sovereign father.
Thirdly,i am thankful that Him,you and me are a team.i am thankful that He gave me you as my accountability partner and i appreciate you for that.i am also thankful for my sisters in Christ who have kept me accountable in this walk of salvation.
Fourthly,i am sorry again for not been consistent in my quiet time because i know one of your prayers for me is not to make you an idol.My prayer is that through the help of the holy spirit,i will keep my word just as our father keeps His.
i am also sorry i am not a reverential young woman according to titus2:2(NIV),i am really sorry for that.The holy spirit has been convicting of this sin,of this pride in my heart.
i definitely feel unworthy of our father's love but i will pick up the pieces and seek His face.
The issue of a lack of reverence in me has been heavy on my heart,my prayer is that the holy spirit may help me because He is the spirit of truth,He may help me in all things including being honest and never having to take advantage of anyone so that i could get my way.
i am sorry also for the selfishness in me,God is working in me concerning this.
i am sorry for all the times i have used means of manipulation and crying so that i could get my way.
Now to wrap this,you already know i have a child,you know angel and you know the many times i have shared with our father that i don't know how to be a parent.
i am thankful that you appreciate me,i am thankful to our father that you appreciate me as a mom,i am thankful that even though you see the many times i have failed in this area,you continue to cheer me on.
So for now i have to go and take our child to salon,i have to keep my word just as our father keeps His according to psalm 33:4(NIV).
Psalm 33
1 Sing joyfully to the Lord, you righteous;
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
2 Praise the Lord with the harp;
make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.
3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
2 Praise the Lord with the harp;
make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.
3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.
he is faithful in all he does.
Amen to that word!
i pray you have accepted my apology.
Prayer for us(plus readers),
Heavenly father help us to look to You,help us to not feel the need to prove ourselves to anyone even those that surround us on a daily basis.We trust you to provide for all our needs.We trust that Your favor goes before us in Jesus name we pray and believe.Amen!
With much love,
Jacque.
